Happy new year! Yes, I know technically I’m fourteen days late with this sentiment. To be fair though, my birthday is February 9, so I’ve always considered that to be the first day of my new year. So in my reality, I am four weeks early!
This year as I’ve done in the past few years, instead of setting a lame resolution that’s destined to fall flat, I am focusing on a mantra: Be Brave. I didn’t choose this mantra because I am necessarially afraid, but to remind myself to think bigger, to be bolder and to let go of control.
Letting go of control, might not seem related to being brave, but for me it really is. I like to feel in control of my life whether or not I truly am is another story. I want to know what’s coming around the corner. I’ll read the last page of the book first. I’ll peek at my horoscope just to see if there is some glimpse of what the future might hold for me. Waiting is hard. Not having control of a particular outcome is hard. Asking for help or relying on someone else for something is hard.
I want to know. As a Christian, I’ve been taught that God has a plan for me. He knows me by name and knows what I will choose before I do myself. If I relinquish control and my will over to Him, I will be rewarded. I want to believe that. I want to let go, yet my will to know holds me back. If there is already a plan and God knows what I am going to do before I do, what’s the point then? Why can’t He cut to the choice and just tell me what that plan is? Do I really have free-will or am I destined to be someone determined before I was even born?
Life is so random. I had no control over being born and to who my parents and family are. Happenstance placed me in midwest Ohio to the family that loved me and raised me. I’ve been out-of-control from the moment I was conceived. Yet the choices I’ve made have taken me down different paths. Each decision I made takes me in a new direction. The words I am writing in this post are different than they would be if I had written the yesterday when I first pondered writing this post or tomorrow had I procrastinated writing yet another day.
To me being brave means to finally release control and letting the suspense build. I can’t control the outcome, so I might as well sit back and enjoy the ride. I will know what life has in store for me soon enough. Time marches on. I can either fight it or go with it. I’m choosing to go with it.
Every day is a new beginning.
Be brave. Be brave. Be brave.
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Would you be interested in attending my writing group to briefly speak about your books and your writing process? We meet once a month at the Swanton library at 7 pm the first Thursday of the month. We are a diverse group with ages from 12 to 72, and our attendance ranges from 5 to 10 people per meeting. You’re welcome to attend once or become a member of the group.
You wouldn’t have to prepare anything. Just bring your two books and be ready to discuss them. I’m sure we will have questions. My email is firstname.lastname@example.org. Shoot me an email, and if you are interested in attending, I’ll speak to the coordinator of the group to set a firm date.